Hmm, I’m starting to realize that as time goes I really don’t feel human necessarily. Sure I experience some of the emotions [much to my chagrin] that I don’t express very well and I really don’t know how I am in relation to the human race other than the fact that I feel completely out of it.This isn’t a new feeling for me whatsoever, this just happens to be the first time that I’ve bothered trying to articulate it because well, I suspect people would just think I’m a bit out of it. A little too fanciful.”Of course you’re human! Look at you.” That’s what I image someone saying when I bother to say this to anyone. It’s bad enough that I have particular identifications that are rare as it is, to find that one doesn’t even much identify with the race with which they have a body type similar too. This is a distressing situation in a way to end up dealing with. Perhaps it’d be better if I didn’t have a physical body. I’m not necessarily certain.I’m just trying to get to the core of all this.And I have no idea where I’m going.
It's a really strange feeling to realize that you don't particularly feel a part of the "race" one has interacted with ever since birth, to varying success. While I have no idea what I could possibly really be, all I know is that things aren't they seem and I have to start looking at things from a certain perspective as the human thing isn't really working much out for me anymore. At least I don't particularly feel that way.
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