Grrr

For rambling and uncomfortable feelings.


I'm so perpetually frustrated right now. I just can't stop thinking about this person that I have strangely complicated feelings for. And the fact that right now, things haven't gone well for them on test makes me like "HOW DO I BE SYMPATHETIC." Why am I so terrible at everything regarding relations with other people. It's like I'm just ugh. I want to help in anyway I can but I don't know what to say, what to do. Is there anything I can do? Who the hell knows. This is just all so much crap for me right now and I just dislike evrything and everyone and .. okay there is a lyric that is just me right around now.


"The more I try to connect the world, I am feeling more alone."


..Kill me. Please.


Oh I forgot to mention that I did recently write a letter for him. Will he ever see it? I really really don't know. As soon as I finished writing it, I was overcome with the urge to rip it into a million pieces and set on fire but that wouldn't help my situation any at all. Damn this life.


Not to mention my dislike of the class that I've already mentioned before and I'm just a mess. A inconsolable wreck of inner chaos.